只想[一个人] ^^

Thursday, May 19, 2011

burning promises.

You told me you loved me
I told you I loved you too
You said together we'd always be
I said I would be true

You promised you would hold me
You promised you'd be there
I promised I'd cross the stormy sea
To give you my loving care

But you never kept your promise
You aren't the way you used to be
You just gave up on us
And you just gave up on me

How You appreciate it ?

How to appreciate the chance i gave you? I have gave you so many chances, but why but why you keep broke it, by all your lies. My dear, You spoke so much lies, Even i know but i Gave the other chance again, Sorry to say that, You lost it over and over again.
I really dint mind about your past, I know everyone got past, I do really accept what has happen on your past, cause i know that If really means love we can accept all the things. But my dear, I was hope all of the lies is past, But it's not., Is now...now you still...Your love turn into two...that's all i cant accept...I try to explain with me...i try hard to forgive about it...But i just can't...you tell me that's how much you want me, how much you need me and love me...i know all this...i can felt your love, you gave me everything. my dear, things goes wrong, you should wake...or we should wake...You said you din't means want together with her...you said you just try to help her not to relaying people when things happen...is it called HELP? by using those "i love you" 'I miss you"?? even she saw us eat you also need to explain so much to her, cause you love her...you scare she hurt and you scare she misunderstanding u and me...it's so fucking terrible, you hurt two person who love you most at the same time...You said you care her does means wan her? But my dear, you did...you're asking back her love...how much you need her, how much you love her..i know all of this...i do really hurt when i know all the TRUTH! cause of this, i cried all of my holidays. two weeks. even we met up, i try to forget about it and spend my time with you and make you feel happy, i do really happy. I still very love you, but what can i do? I gave so many chance...i'm totally done my things, I believed you, but you lie. I loved you and cared you, but you dint appreciated it... i don't whether we really means forever or not, i dont wan to care much now..if we really means forever, God will take this chance again. when you know the chance is came for you, please take it and appreciated it my dear...i'm not long for you to hurt,but love with your all heart. I love you. my third insomnia days .

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

My lover.

I Can't forgive myself, I die inside every times I think about it. But I never regret that having you in you life, you're the one I love most, Maybe in your life i'm not the only one love you most..I am done believed with you my dear. I want you be happy like before, before you never met me, Before I never fall in love with you...I love and still love you. I Use to pray and wish, I appreciated your love and care, It's really work for me. I change my mind so much, I change my attitude so much, I stop the thing you dislike. You help me, you save me. I love you. I still darling..but things goes wrong right now.You said you're waiting me, I hope the day you come and pick me, Is from you all heart and not make those things happen again. I can't stand for it anymore. if we really means together forever, god will give us a chance and meet up again.

My Love.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Today.

Happy half year anniversary to us. Does matter i'm still here for you, care and love you till the end of world. I love You my dear~

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

信任的心?

亲爱的,我发现我越来越难信任你了=( 我到底怎么了?

这几个星期,我们都在吵架,我很难过也,哭了好几晚。放学后,把自己上锁在房里,反复的问自己到底怎么了。当自己冷静下来时,我才发现原来我在吃醋,在害怕。你说你会吃醋,那我呢?回想过去,却觉得很不公平。你常说我很多追求者,有很多选择,在年轻可以在寻找其他。当我听到你所说的时,心顿时好疼,刺刺的仿佛已经被刺伤似的。但亲爱的,倒着看,那么你呢?你那狂野的心,那和他人纠缠不清的关系,那和他人说的甜言蜜语,我所亲眼看到的,亲耳听到的,我可以不给一点的反应吗?我是一个很普通的女生,也会像其他吃吃醋。你的其他女生和我的其他男生的关系相比下简直是天壤之别啊!我对的起自己良心,从不向其他男生甜言蜜语,也不单独和他们出们,反而你呢,喜欢和女生甜言蜜语,也尝试过和一直对你念念不忘的女生出门。我也只能假装的,坚强下去。我真对你完全失去信任和信心了吗?我也知,你很难过,一直责怪自己从一开始就没能赢过我的信任。亲爱的,我有的! 我一直都很信任你的,但很可惜的我无法信任你那纠缠不清的关系,我的心很疼,无法那么的大方。也许我过分吃醋,但我也无法抵挡那可恶的感觉,你也许不明白,或许只有我自己明白那心疼心碎的感觉。我的眼泪为你流了好几公升,心也反复的被敲碎然后又被你那温暖的手抚摸。那几晚,我认真的问自己,是否在继续这样的路线?当那些念头出现时,我们那甜蜜的回忆也同一时间的浮现在脑海。我不想就这样结束我们的关系,只想好好的保护我们那脆弱的感情。告诉自己要坚持下去,只要坚持没有事情是不能解决的。我还是想当初的那样爱你,你也是,亲爱的,我知道的,那付出的爱是能够被看出来的,真心的爱是你一直不断的付出。我也很想和你说声“对不起”那部信任对方的心,我也很努力的在为自己寻找最佳的解决方法,也许唯一的就是给对方一点点的时间,不问不堪。我不知道这是否是真确的解决方法,但只有这样才不在那么的疼了。亲爱的,要记住我这个女孩,一直活在你的影子低下,一直找不到出路的我,一直坚持不放手的女孩。永不变的爱,我爱你。

Friday, March 11, 2011

真的很难受!

很难过!
那些不被尊重,不被信任的感觉真的让我很难过,我真的累透了!
不想请求原谅,因为原谅了就等于等待着你下一个未知的伤害=(

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

我想念你了

今晚的我想念你了,
今晚的“想念”特别的难受,
今晚的“感觉”特别的有味道,
我真的很想你。
那么你呢?