Time flies

time flies, is end of the year, x'mas is around the corner and new year, 2012 i just cant wait to challenge with it..gonna be a busy new year for me and also "HIM" erm...great to hear that, i'm fine, everything still the same, but my heart getting mature cause this year i realy been through so much thing, happy unhappy, sweet bitter or what...all this make me be a better person...and i still pray every night i hope that i got enough energy to trust him, so that i can hold it without doubtful again. i gonna setting up everything, i can't act like before, i dont want all that happen again, and of cause i believe with him but myself, i gonna change my mind....so that i can live more better..

You means something to me

"You mean more to me then you will ever know or that I can ever say. You mean everything to me and I can honestly say I’m truly happy with you, Everyday I wake up knowing I have the most amazing one and I trust you with my heart no matter whats happens. I know people say “forever” is over rated, but you are really special to me and I want you to be my forever and always. Every night I would imagine meeting you that could complete the other half of me and now that I have met you I hope you never let go of me. No matter how many fights we get in please know that I’ll always be there for you through the bad and the good times, I know we will persevere through the distance because our love remains strong in the heart and mind. I love the way you are able to make me smile, I love how you make me laugh, I love the butterflies I get in my stomach when we have our late night phone calls, to simply put it I love everything about you because you prove me true love. To be honest I’d do anything and everything just to see you happy and I know that you have been hurt before, But I want to be the one that takes your heart and keeps it safe, the one who proves to you that I’m different, the one that shows you my love is true, to simply put it the one who keep trying to protects our relationship and loves you. I don’t ask for much, all I ask is that you please stay in my life because you are the only one who can make me feel the way I do and the honestly the only one who has my heart. ---*Even though we're now living different way, different life, But Its wouldn't tear us apart, Even though we broke up, I still missing you and loving you. dont say me stupid, i blamed myself sometimes but this is what i truly feel inside, with my love.*

What a old place

Hello to my old "friend" named "Blogger" heehee...long time don't post my blog le...This few month I been through lot of thing, Broke up with Him and starting my new life, Without him, I learn to stay strong, learn to face all the loneliness, meet tears every night and insomnia, But now Hmm =) I'm feeling better, Thanks for my Lovely friend cheer me without any question..June, Teo, my sweethear (cousin) and also my mother, Thanks for helping me get through it. This is what we called life, People come and goes, and I never stop believing the day we meet up again, maybe someday. The day we knowing each other and more mature. sorry for giving you so much inconvenient and hurt and also lie, Lie you I never hate you. actually I do, That's the reason for me to be stronger and be a little bit smarter. You said you will wait the day we meet up, and sorry that, I dont expect high, cause I scare get hurt again, just like before. I get lot of hurt and you know it too. If one day, I leave here, I leave this place, Dont search for me, dont blame me leave without saying good-bye, it not means I cant wait and no love you, of cause I still, but I got to go my own way. I will not say goodbye to you, cause you'll always stay in my heart.. or maybe the day we meet up , is the day you invite me to go to your wedding with the girl went through everything with you =)
sorry that, i'm not perfect enough and prove love weak but I never regret that having you in my life even though its only a short period =)
Jy, You still the best for me, and thanks a lot, you must live happily cause I want you happy. Maybe In future life, our Love may fade, but dear you, our memories never change.
May God bless Us, In a different way different place.
if meant it, we'll find our own way to love each other.

*Read my Tumblr (the blog you never know, and the page about you and me) If I one day I disappear , You'll know everything inside there.*

Let it be.

Let’s grow old together… beginning with today.
Let’s work slowly with each other and build a relationship that we can both enjoy being a part of.
Let’s share love and understand that neither of us is perfect.
Let’s hold each other close and whisper though the night—pledging our love, honoring our commitment.
Let’s encourage each other to pursue our dreams, even when we’re weary from trying.
Let’s expect the best that we both have to give and still love when we fall short of our expectations.
Let’s be friends and respect each other’s individual personality and give one another room to grow.
Let’s be candid with each other and point out strengths and weaknesses.
Let’s understand each other’s personal philosophy, even if we don’t agree.
Let’s lie awake long into the night sharing our innermost secrets.
Let’s be friends as well as lovers.
Let’s laugh at time and plan with each other and wonder how we ever got along without this love we’ve found.
Let’s never take for granted these moments that we’ve shared, but always be reminded of how intensely we have learned to live, how completely we have learned to love.
Let’s grow old together… and look back on life and smile.

I ♥ YOU: God knows how I care and love someone.

I’d be the craziest girlfriend ever. I know that’s wrong at some point. I just don’t believe that loving is a two way process. I always thought of it as simply GIVING and not expecting anything in return. Because that’s where pain kicks in when you expect and you didn’t get what you expect. Why…

I Can't forgive myself, I die inside every times I think about it. But I never regret that having you in you life, you're the one I love most, Maybe in your life I'm not the only one love you most..I am done believed with you my dear. I want you be happy like before, before you never met me, Before I never fall in love with you...I love and still love you. I Use to pray and wish, I appreciated your love and care, It's really work for me. I change my mind so much, I change my attitude so much, I stop the thing you dislike. You help me, you save me. I love you. I still darling..but things goes wrong right now.You said you're waiting me, I hope the day you come and pick me, Is from you all heart and not make those things happen again. I can't stand for it anymore. if we really means together forever, god will give us a chance and i will forgive you and accept you again.

If you’re going to love me, love only me. If you decide to break my heart, break it all. If you’re going to hug me, hug me like you mean it. If you’re going to care for me, care for me all the time. If you decide not to hold me, let me fall. If you’re going to stay, stay forever. If you’re going to leave, leave now. If you’re going to change, change for the better. And if we’re going to talk, please mean what you say.